Would it make sense if I beg you to stay? Would it change a thing? You clearly don't think I am good enough You clearly don't want to do anything for me So why should I try? Why should I fight? Cause my love is bigger? But what about YOUR love? You said “forever” You said “I'll never leave you” And I believed you I was so stupid and naive that I believed you And now I'm here, lying on my bed, moping and screaming and shouting and crying begging you not to leave me Begging and pleading, knowing it's for nothing Cause you said such horrible things I'll never be able to forget again That it has never been worthy That it has never been good When some hours ago you were telling me that I am amazing and beautiful Now you say that it'll never work out that it never has and it's the first time you admit it After so many months... 10 months.. isn't it enough? I've been fighting and crying and begging and pleading and you never did anything like this And now you say that it'll never work out? Ironic,isn't it? The one who should beg is cold as ice The one who should end it is moping around Forgetting my pride and crawling behind When I should be the one who say you're not good enough You see how not fair it is But you don't do anything to make it right You know how it hurts And you still don't care You never showed me if you really loved me You never fought for me And now... You don't want me Anymore So I'll have to survive it I'll have to stand up after that you kicked me down again after you broke me and never hold me and won't ever help me be myself again All the dreams and hopes All the planned future goes to hell with your words that it's not going to work You won't even try to make it a better thing You won't even change yourself for me And now I'm supposed to believe that you love me? That you loved me once before? Before you ended it? Forgive me if I don't If I'm not that naive Forgive me if I don't forget those words that you said Forgive me if I don't feel like living this life all over again Forgive if I don't want to trust someone again Cause after you did me I don't want to fall again You made me fall,you dumped me and kicked me, smashed my heart to pieces and ripped me apart So forgive me if I can't forget all that you did All that you said Cause I'm not a strong person I am so weak You know all my deepest secrets and my weakest points You know me better than I know myself And I gave you all I gave you everything And your answer to all this you dump me and break me I gave you more than I could I gave you more than you can imagine I gave you everything Everything that I had My heart, my body, my soul All my dreams and future And you show me your gratitude by throwing me away So now I've got nothing else No family,no friends, no one I can trust No one. Not even you.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
My heart is beating My heart is pleading To be saved Its going bad It's going mad It need help now Before it sops making a sound It's yelling and yelling It's swelling and swelling But when it screams No one ever hears They are just standing there They just stare It's breaking and breaking Every things shaking I then feel a pain Something that feels like a chain Suffocating me It rips through my soul It's making holes Then it gets to my heart And starts tearing it apart Then it crumbles And tumbles Down a dark hole I then lose myself And am forced to live in the shadow Of someone else
Goodbye my love why did god take you away? Why my love did you have to take your life Why didn't I try to contact you sooner Why couldn't it be my arms wrapped around your neck and not a nose Why wasn't I not there to comfort you I need to feel your touch I need to taste your sweet lips instead of bitter salty tears I need to hear you say you love me When your mother told me you died that terrible night I was devastated I miss you baby you haunt me till this day Why couldn't it be me and not you You were doing better anyway If I could die and it would bring you back i would do it happily but I can't so I am saying my goodbyes Goodbye hour long phone calls Goodbye carelessly sweet kisses Goodbye my other half Goodbye.......I can't do this I can't live without him! I'm coming my love to everybody else.......... Goodbye!!
My love for you has died out. The pain it causes for me puts a hole through my chest, as if there was nothing there to begin with. When you cut me open, I never thought I would bleed. Just take me, and shut me out. Just don't break me, because I am broken enough. You once said you loved me, But that all soon changed. Once you knew I was different, You disowned me. Destroyed me. Hated me. Now I cry tears of crimson that stain my carpet of sadness and pain. I'm not that strong willed. I can't smile while hurt. All of you that I have now, Is the imprint of your hatred Upon my heart.
When we swore to never be apart I never knew that it was just me You are still in my heart and soul You have my whole heart I'll forever be just a half waiting to be whole My love in vain You don't even understand this pain Without you it's like The day without sun Rain without clouds A kid without parents A pool without water A rainbow without color Thunder without lightning A laugh without a smile Family with no love Night without the moon or stars You are still whole and happy I'm forced to still love and miss you There is still no words to describe it Without you I'll always be incomplete
You were my only happiness, My one and only highness I kept my secrets with you, Cause I know you were true Darkness came into me, For only you I can only be But darkness turned into darkest, Cause you left me and have eternal rest My tears fell down, My heart was drown You left without a warning, You vanished in just a fling Your laughter and smile, I can't search it in an isle Your brown eyes and well-formed nose, I love and misses those I know you're still with me, Your love's within my heart Though life is no longer present, Our souls will never part I know its not the last, For time is evenly fast So long for now my happiness, Until we meet again my highness Now I understand, finely like sand Why you'd left and chose HIS land For now, in heaven I want to send MY LOVE for you TILL THE END.
Everyday I'm waking up to find myself alone again, To sing another painful song of joy, Drifting through a day of lies, Twisted words and painful sighs, I keep myself locked away for good. Every time I sing to you, I always sing the wrong tune, I wish that we could go back in time, Happiness is what you were, And I gave you my last curse, You will never see the light again, Can't we ever start again, Back in time to where it began, I dream of past every single day, I don't know what I did to you, But you broke my heart all the way through, And yet you're still always by my side, You thought that I would break your heart, But I never ever looked apart, Your eyes were always gleaming oh so bright, And when the tears roll down my face, Still I get a cold embrace, Do you really love me at all.
hidup ni memang menyakitkan hati..asal aku x amti je ek.? baru x sakit hati..org yg aku sayang tinggalkan aku mcm 2 ja..hina sangat ka aku ni..aku taw la umo aku lagi muda dari dia..tapi knapa dia sanggup buat aku mcm ni..apa salah aku..AKU HARAP DAN BERDOA..,AGAR DIA AKN KEMBALI PADAKU PADA MASA AKN DATANG
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Thanks sbb sudi hadir dalam hidup saya..saya sayang awak sangat2..sy minta maaf klu sy ada buat salah kat awak..tapi sy nk awak tahu ini..,sy sayangkan awak sepanjang hidup dy.,walaupun kita dh berpisah..,hati sy tetap milik awak..dan sy harap..,awak akn terima sy blik pada masa yg akn datang..,sy sayangkan awak slmanya..,dan klu sy sudah tiada..,sy harap awak akn jmpa org yg lebih baik dari sy..